- Does this person make me happy.
- What do I want for dinner.
- What apartment do I want to live in.
- What roommate works for me.
- What college do I want to go to.
- What do I want to major in.
- What job makes the most sense for me.
- Do I want a promotion.
I think you get the point. Yes, getting married makes it more "us," but you still have a lot of me stuff. Then there's pregnancy. It's the training wheels for how a mom's life is about to change. It's no longer, "What do I want for dinner?" It's, "What am I allowed to have for dinner?" or "What do I think I can eat that won't make me sick?" Want a cocktail? Yeah, right. Sushi...I don't think so. Not only that, but you have ZERO control over your body. That was a weird one for me.
I didn't eat "for two," as the saying goes. I wasn't intaking many more calories than prior to being pregnant, yet my body kept gaining weight. I'm not talking about a pound here and there. I gained 50 friggin' pounds! Before you say anything...my baby was 6lbs 9oz...not a 45 pounder :) You wan to talk about crazy, I got sick the entire pregnancy, too! How the heck was I gaining weight like that if I was throwing up? I also didn't just gain the weight in my tummy. I gained it ALL OVER. My arms, my legs. Yeah....my body was definitely not mine anymore.
Then I had Lucy. To date, THE MOST LIFE CHANGING THING EVER. Now, I kind of got my body back, but my brain thinks of her first. What do I want for dinner, that Lucy can have, too. I'm not tired, but Lucy's asleep, so I should try to sleep. We're going to a party, so I've got to get her dressed and ready. No time for me to do my hair and I'll just throw on some eye liner. Lucy naps, so I better clean the bathrooms, kitchen, and weed the front yard. I've officially gone down on the list of priorities.